This past week sped on by and my workouts were pretty much non-existent. I was only able to make it to the gym once due to Jim taking on more at work with a co-worker leaving the company. Meals also got a little messed up and if I wasn’t able to follow my plan I didn’t eat as much or made the health conscious decision (which is really hard for me cuz I LOVE food!). I was also really, really, really tired last week, Payton and I would sleep until 10 or 11 and then I would actually take a nap when she was napping. I wasn’t seeing the signs, but mother nature finally decided to grace me with her presence after 11 long months, yay me. I am glad that week is over because this week has already been better.

I have to say that I feel 95% better than I did two weeks ago (duh! releasing endorphins does help) but there is still a part of me that is still kind of down about the way my body looks. I can feel the fat go away and some parts tightening up, maybe if I just remove every mirror I won’t have a complex (or getting into a pair of non-maternity jeans might boost my confidence)! Jim actually told me last night that it makes him sad every time I look into the mirror, he truly loves me for who I am, stretch marks and all.

Monday kicked-off my first day in the gym since July 2nd. This was the longest stretch I have ever gone without working out and boy am I paying for it now. I had so much anxiety stepping foot back into a routine but today I feel normal, like a human. I know that probably sounds weird but while I was pregnant I babied myself and once Payton was born I had to baby myself again due to having a c-section. I have been so upset with my weight gain, my current weight is the heaviest I have ever been, yeah I know it was for a good reason but I am so excited to see it all go away. I have set a goal to lose 20 pounds in two months, this is a little unrealistic considering that means I have to lose 2+ a week but I know I can do and I will do it. My starting weight is 170 and I plan on getting down to 150 by the time I go back to work on April 19th. My overall weight loss goal is 35 pounds, which I hope to shed by June. I know I had said I was joining Weight watchers but I decided to join Jillian Michael’s online program. My routine includes four days in the gym and two days working out at home using my wii Fit, Your Shape and walking the dog. So far I am totally impressed with Jillian’s program and cannot wait to start the customized meal plan and workout program tomorrow. Check in every Wednesday on my “weigh-in Wednesday’s” to track my progress and some weekly recipes that I am trying.