How do you express in words the feelings that one experiences during the birth of a child? For me, I have been through three. . .and not my own! My sister has three beautfiul babies; Ethan 4, Makayla 3, and Madelyn 1. I was involved throughout every step; doctor’s visits, cravings, mood swings, sonograms, and being lucky enough to be in the room when they entered this world. The reason why I am on this subject is because my dear friend Cassie just flew home a week ago to be a part of her first nieces birth. After being six days past her due date Chloeigh finally came into this world via C-section as she was face down. Cassie wrote me today expressing the feelings that overwhelmed her while in the waiting room and being with her sister throughout every step. It got me thinking about my sister and how proud I am of her and how strong she has been. My youngest niece Maddie just turned one on Monday and it reminded me how one-year ago I was going through the same emotions as Cassie but, seven years ago I was mourning my Grandmother’s passing. I guess you forget the intial feelings as the kids get older and you focus on newer, exciting things. Having Cassie share her new emotions rekindled some of mine, and made me realize that the reason why I smile at my nieces and nephew the way I do is because I will never forget the day they changed my life; the day they were born and the way they call me “auntie”.

Ethan Robert Barr

Makayla Katherine Barr

December 18, 2005

Maddie’s First Easter 2007

Madelyn Jean Jameson
March 31, 2007

This day is so special to our family because my Grandmother passed away on March 31, 2001 at the age of ninety-one.

My Grandmother, Muriel Katherine Barr

My Valentines Gift: A Picture of my babies.

Cassie with her niece, Chloeigh Mae

April 2, 2008

Okay, so I have been contemplating blogging for a long time and I never thought that I would want to be a part of another addictive source. However, I need a “grown-up” medium for me to vent to and to share our lives. I guess what I am saying is that I “think” I am ready to stray away from myspace. I know for some this may be a shock, but you know, I am over it. Today, I saw my friend Danielle’s bulletin and she said “hello friends, goodbye friends”. I sat there and really started to think about her message. I have been on myspace since the beginning, and I mean the beginning. I spend countless hours staring at my page and other’s. I have re-connected with many high school friends and continue to stay connected with many friends that I no longer see on a regular basis. However, I have lost friends because of the site. During my many hours of “lurking” I begin to feel left out, sad, angry, etc. Because those friends that you classify as your “top friends” turn out not be your friends at all. Now, I’m not saying that I don’t still love all my friends but since we have gotten married things have changed. Some may say it’s because of me, but I have to defend myself. I can go on for hours but I have to just get it out there that I am moving on. I will be changing many things within my life and I look forward to sharing all the new wonderful things through my blog.