i am turning a new page. this year i will be thirty, actually in 171 days to be exact. in the past three years i have been pregnant for twenty of those thirty-six months. my body has gone through hell and back and then back to hell again. while i love my children more than life itself i am not happy where my body has gone and i think this is a legitimate statement for any mom. i know i will never get my smokin’ hot twenty-five-year-old bod back but i want to feel good about myself. after i had payton i shared my journey on the jillian diet, it worked, i lost the weight and had all but fifteen pounds left to my goal and then i got knocked up again. i only gained thirty pounds this time around which was half of what i gained with payton. i have only lost ten post-partum which is depressing but i am not worried about it. i gave myself until the new year to start my journey, the journey to a new me.

i am never one to stick to a diet, i often laugh at myself because before kids i could eat whatever i wanted. i went to the gym three to five days a week and i was working full-time. now, i am not working (for the time being) and i haven’t made it to the gym yet because spending an extra hour with the babes is more precious to me, but who am i kidding? i still have to protect my body if i want to live long enough to see my great-grand babies.

everyone from your neighbor to the little old lady you run into at the grocery store has made a resolution for weight loss. so, why am i any different? why should you keep reading? because i am asking for virtual support. i would love if you would come back every week and tell me how you are doing. today starts my first day on dr. mike moreno’s, the 17 day diet. i have never been excited about a crash diet, because let’s be honest they never last and by day two you are a hot mess wanting to jump feet first into a jar of hot fudge. this diet seems to be the “right” one for me. i can eat whatever i want as long as if fits into the guidelines for cycle one. last night i went to the grocery store with my handy-dandy list which wasn’t any different from my regular grocery list, it just had items with fat-free in front of it and there were no crispy-fried potato chips. which we might or might not have polished off an entire bag of ruffles with onion dip and a cheese pizza in preparation to empty our pantry and freezer. don’t judge, you know you’ve done the same at least once in your life.

so, here’s the deal. today i started the 17-day diet. i have eaten half of my grapefruit, my lemon water and my scrambled eggs with onions and peppers. i am getting ready to peel myself off of my couch to enjoy the 80 degree january weather us so-cal residents are blessed with to walk to target to purchase a new scale. i am going to share recipes, my journey and my numbers with you. because let’s be real, you all love making yourself feel better by reading how fat someone else is. that is, unless you want to come back each week and link up to share your own numbers! which, i would love and you would make me feel uber special by sharing your journey with me.

each wednesday we are going to link-up to my weigh-in wednesday, sound good? so get your stories ready, your real numbers typed in and come back tomorrow for our first weigh-in wednesday. i hope there are a few of you who are with me on this! puuurrttyy-please!?

see ya manana!

my haul last night. everything from: agave, flax seed oil, ruby red grapefruit, fat-free feta, eggs, veggies and I mean a ton of veggies, apples, green tea, turkey burgers, water, truvia, sauerkraut and some chicken. sounds okay, right?!

breakfast day one. two scrambled eggs with kroger brand peppers & onion mix and half a ruby red.

even payton got in on the action but she wanted lots of cheese, which i am okay with. she even ate one segment of the grapefruit. it’s doable people!