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computer + sunglasses = cannot live without

This weeks “Top 2 Tuesday” topic is: Top 2 things you cannot live without

I am going to go the route Taylor over at “the undomestic momma” did and get the obvious outta the way: water, food, family, God, and health. To get in on the action click the link below.


Two things I could not live without are. . .


1. My Mac Book. I am an addict. I am admitting I have a problem. I can spend all day on my computer. Jim would love it if I was computer illiterate just so I would look up when he is talking. It is one of the best gifts anyone has ever given me. How many hours do you spend on your computer a day?
2. I CANNOT live without sunglasses. If I leave the house and I do not have mine I will freak out, my eyes are so sensitive and I get major headaches if I go into the sun without them. The one designer item I love are sunglasses, I have had this problem since I was seventeen. Back then I could treat myself to several pairs a year but now I purchase one pair a year, but the ones posted I purchased last year on the day sweet little P was conceived (sorry TMI) so I will stick with these for a little bit. Even though I did find a cute Gucci pair my priorities have changed slightly so until these babies have a major scratch I’ll be rocking them.


Lack of Commitment

A few weeks ago I started going back to church. I have never really been one to consistently attend, but I have always wanted to make the commitment to attend each week. To back-up a little, when I lived at home my parents started attending again up in Running Springs, we would go to church functions, service and my Dad helped with their new location and so on. Well, when my Dad had to take on a second job on the weekends a few years back the church and a few select members turned their back on my Dad. With that being said the church left a sour taste in my mouth because I had always presumed that the church would stand by you in a time of need. My family was suffering because we never saw him, he was overworked and to top it off my Mom was recovering from Breast Cancer. Needless to say, my parents stopped attending that given church.

When Payton was born we were asked by our extended family if she was going to baptized. I knew in my heart she had to be even if I am not. I wouldn’t be able to deal with my decision of not getting her baptized if something were ever to happen to her. Jim and I started talking about what church, what denomination and what our beliefs were. We decided on a church neither of us had attended but I had wanted to for years. The denomination of Presbyterian was chosen because my parents were married Presbyterian and since I am not baptized I thought it was the best decision. A few days after our decision I made a call to the church to organize P’s baptism, Anne, whom I had spoken to asked if we were members and if we had planned on attending. I felt a little awkward when she asked me this but I wanted to make the arrangements for her baptism in April anyway. The hard part for me was actually making the commitment to attending. It took me until three weeks ago to start attending their contemporary service on Saturday evenings. On my first visit I took Payton with me and I mingled, introduced myself and sat in the back of the sanctuary just in case she was getting fussy. This was the perfect service to go to for my first visit, talking about the remembrance of Chelsea King and immediately I thought of her and my Grandmother. When the band starting singing their first songs I was in tears, completely moved while I yearned for my lost one. That evening I made the commitment to attend every week.
Last evenings service really moved me. It was about doubt and the fear of letting God into your life. The entire time I felt like the Pastor was talking directly to me. I have been doubtful my entire life, always asking hundreds of questions to God why he let’s certain events happen to people with catastrophes, death, hatred, etc. Towards the end of the service the band sang a song, and then played a video from the Willow Creek Leadership Summit called, “A Thousand Questions”. I was even more moved. Tears flowed from my eyes and I sat there answering my own question, one that I was afraid of for so long. I want to make the commitment to the church and become a member. I want to know more, I want to have faith and I want to grow. To become a member I will have to attend six-weeks of study and then at the end the elders vote to accept you into the church. They present the new members at any service and since I am not baptized this will be done at that time as well. I could not be any happier with my decision of finally making the commitment to God and to the church.
Below is the video they played last night. With my background in poetry the spoken word they portray literally moved me and I just had to share. Some of you might have already seen this but here it is anyway.

Flab-Flab, Go Away {Friday’s}

Well, I changed the name and day of my weigh-in’s. I realized last week that I was supposed to be weighing in on Friday’s for Jillian’s program so here we are two days later. I have been doing really well in regards to what I am eating. I no longer crave carbs, which is huge because at one point in my life I could solely live off of them. I have also cut out real butter, which is another huge feat in itself because I love butter like Paula Deen love’s bacon. I even went shopping for me the other day and braved myself to take a chance to try on jeans. I got a size 11 on, which was great, but I couldn’t button them up. I wasn’t upset, just happy that this number wasn’t a size 16. It also means that with an additional ten pounds I will be in my pre–preggo jeans. I attempted putting on my size 28 Hudson’s but my thighs are still a little big, but with hope and a lot of hard work I plan on getting back into these in the next month. I have reached a point where the saying, “it took nine months to get your body where it is, so don’t expect miracles overnight” finally sunk in. FINALLY. I also think that seeing the previews for Kendra’s new season turned on a light bulb. I will probably write about the show after seeing it Sunday night, but I have a feeling that what Kendra experiences in that episode is how I am feeling.
Okay, this weeks numbers:
Weight: 162 : down one pound from last week. Total weight loss: 8 pounds
BMI: 26.15 : down slightly from last week (26.22)
Next week I will have measurements to start tracking.
and. . . for your viewing pleasure of my flab, here are two pictures. The first one is of me on Christmas Day, seven days after I gave birth. The second was taken today. There is clearly a huge difference, but still a whole lotta work ahead!


excuse my messy EVERYTHING! I got out of the shower to a screaming baby and thought I’d snap a few pics while she was content watching cartoons.

Three Months

Dear P-

Today you are three months old and it marks our last few weeks together before I go back to work. I am experiencing a whirlwind of emotions about my return on April 5th but I trust that it is the best decision for the three of us. I love waking up in the morning to make you a bottle to return to you giving me the most radiant gummy smile, legs kicking a mile a minute and sweet coo’s as I pick you up. I love our days together and it makes me extremely sad to think we will never have this time again. I am comforted that you will be with Grandma, Aunt Kathy and Daddy while I’m working but I will be wondering what you are doing the entire time we are away from one another. With each passing day I love seeing your personality change, a little bit more chubs in the cheeks and you’re barely there blonde hair coming in. I cannot get enough of you, you are honestly the best thing I have ever done. As we move forward, I will not look back, rather, anticipate what is to come and cherish all the memories we will make.

What you’ve been up to this past month:

  • · You are sleeping anywhere from 8-12 hours a night. Still in our bed but we are phasing you into your crib. Again, thank you for being such a good sleeper!
  • · You got your ears pierced and everyone that sees them has an opinion. But Mommy doesn’t care!
  • · You are long enough for your six-month clothing.
  • · Transitioning into size two diapers.
  • · You are teething. Yay for mommy and daddy! We bought Highlands teething tabs and they have helped cut your edginess. Thank golly, mommy’s nerves were almost caput after Monday.
  • · You went to Disneyland, the Wild Animal Park and the Zoo all for the first time. You were amazing on all three occasions.
  • · You giggled for the first time a few weeks ago but today you giggled for me two times and three times for daddy.
  • · You are “talking” like crazy. I love watching your mouth and nose as you get your sounds out. It cracks me up and I could literally watch this all day long.
  • · You found your hands a few weeks ago and some days I think you love them more than me! Two days ago you started looking at your feet so hopefully we get into the feet/mouth stage soon!

xoxo-

Mommy